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I’m in the middle of writing an article on loneliness as a means to drive us deeper into God’s heart and was just struck by the passage this nugget came from. The context is distress and anguish, feeling the grip of death’s crushing pull. Maybe you can relate. But the author of this psalm lifts his eyes above his circumstances and prays for deliverance. He meditates on the character of God; how He is gracious, righteous, and merciful. He remembers what God has done; how He preserves the simple and rescued him when he was flat on his back, hopeless and alone. Then comes verse seven. Circumstances haven’t changed for the author but, then again, God’s worthiness to be worshipped has never been contingent on ideal circumstances. No matter what our lives might look like right now, no matter how uncomfortable or excruciating our circumstances might be, if we have been redeemed by Jesus, we have every reason to “return to our rest;” for the the Lord INDEED has dealt bountifully with us. And He is worthy of our praise and confidence right here. •••• [Also, 1) this is not a staged photo and 2) you should go read all of Psalm 116 for yourself.]
Happy birthday to the best big sister! 🥳 You are as genuine and intentional as they get; you love deep and feel big, and I’m so thankful for your heart and life. 💜 Additionally, I’d like to know how much you were paid to hug me in this photo.
“Do not despair, dear heart, but come to the Lord with all your jagged wounds, black bruises, and running sores. He alone can heal, and He delights to do it. It is our Lord’s office to bind up the brokenhearted, and He is gloriously at home at it.” -Charles Spurgeon
“Theologians who limit the means of grace to overtly redemptive religious practices miss something about the God who speaks without words in the theater of His creation.” -David Powlison

Follow me as I follow Jesus

Missing what’s in front of me


In the Oxford Botanic Gardens, where J. R. R. Tolkien would go to write. Be still my heart.

I’m a journalist. I document things.

It’s my job. I went to school for it. I love it. I do it when I don’t have to.

My daily life consists of taking photos, filling journals, compiling stories, transcribing meetings and interviews, writing lists and making observations.

During our recent trip to England, the documentation game was strong. I wanted to (surprise) document everything (is that a leaf? Is that an old hot dog wrapper that’s been trampled? WE MUST PHOTOGRAPH EVERYTHING). But from time to time, Haley would make me stop and look without taking photos and you know what? The world kept spinning.

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My tendency is to try and preserve every moment, but sometimes in doing so I lose the actual moment. In effort to save I lose (see also: Matthew 16:25). 

The quest for documenting every moment can quench the need to just be in the moment.

When’s the last time you just let yourself be? (Sophie, I’m talking to you.) Can you recall the last time you simply sat in a moment and savored the seconds therein? Here’s the thing about me, I can sit in a moment and then want to take a photo of it to tell everyone I’m sitting in the moment. Uh, hello. #ridiculous

We easily buy into worldly thinking that claims our identity comes from what we do instead of what God has done. We have wrongly believed that we’re human doings instead of human beings. -Jeff Vanderstelt


In our world of Instagram and Twitter and Snapchat and all media that claims to be social, I’ve found it’s easy to live through a screen. But at the end of our short little lives, won’t we find that was no life at all?

Dear heart, life is more than a well-lit photo or a perfectly articulated sentence. Life is meant to be lived. Breathed. Explored. Adventured. Tasted. Enjoyed in real time, not on a Facebook timeline. 

I’m currently sitting in Panera watching a couple at the booth in front of me (creeper status, I know) and in the 20 minutes they’ve been here, they’ve said maybe 15 words to each other. They’re currently staring at their phones, one is eating an apple, one is picking at a sandwich. They’re lost in their own separate worlds.

Are we so connected that we’ve lost true connection?

Am I the only one that struggles with this documentation syndrome? Maybe so. Regardless, my prayer is that we spend our lives with our senses and hearts engaged (which reminds me, you should read this stellar blog on being engaged), viewing our days through the lens of the Gospel not just the lens of a camera.


“Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil.”
-Ephesians 5:15-16

4 comments on “Missing what’s in front of me

  1. Sophie, yes! I needed to read this, you are literally my role model!

    1. Lucyyyyy, you are precious and make my heart happy. Thanks for reading and taking the time to comment—you’re always so encouraging. Love you lots. ❤

  2. Love. I’ve been learning this lesson too.

  3. So challenging. So necessary. Thankful for you!

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